Around the Bend ~ I helped lay the bricks for the walkway years ago
Wrapped in God’s presence,
Secure in His embrace.
He directs my steps,
Each bend in the road I face.
It seems as though we each have our thorn in the flesh. Mine is an inherited, early onset of degenerative disc disease that presented when I was in my twenties. It started with my lower back and included sciatica, but progressed to include involvement with my neck.
These pronounced neck symptoms have forced me to make a tough decision; one that I never intended.
After MUCH prayer, and due to the deterioration of my symptoms with resulting ramifications to my life, I have decided to undergo the three level cervical fusion.
This is after years of trying nearly every non-surgical measure:
Physical therapy, trigger point, deep massage, TENS. myofascial release, chiropractor, traction, injections, stretching, ice and heat, ergonomics, custom-designed pillow, lifestyle adjustments, medications, etc…
For personal reasons, I’ve never wanted acupuncture.
At best, I have merely gotten by throughout the continual roller coaster of pain. Car and plane trips are huge triggers, but I have always bounced back to a manageable level afterwards.
That all changed with our latest trips out-of-town. It’s like I crossed a threshold into a different level with an entirely new set of symptoms, and it is this new normal that drove my decision towards surgery.
Just knowing that any time I travel, I must face significant, lingering neck pain with radiating symptoms is bad enough. However, I now also have an interrelated vertigo with bizarre ear symptoms, which correlates both in intensity and in duration to the neck pain.
The decision was not an easy one, because the what ifs are terrifying. Not unlike the what ifs that I faced with lower back surgeries, though. Amazingly, God brought me through those successfully. You can read about that story, in my series called, A Painful Saga. In fact, I’ve added this post to that series!
The sobering reality is that unless I want to give up traveling, which means that I will rarely see my precious grandchildren, or if I want to live with incapacitating symptoms, I must follow God’s direction and have this surgery.
I realize there are no guarantees. God has given me a confident assurance, though, that He is directing my path. That no matter what I face, He will bear me up on eagles’ wings into His presence.
None of us knows what lies ahead. However, we can rest assured knowing that God already sees around the bend. He promises to go before, behind and with us: helping, strengthening and delivering.
I believe for a good outcome. Regardless of what I face, though, I know that God will wrap me us in His loving, comforting arms. He will carry me safely around this next bend in the road.
“You have seen what I did to the Egyptians, and how I bore you on eagles’ wings and brought you to Myself.”
*Some of you have medical conditions and problems much worse than mine. During my convalescence, as God brings you to my mind, I will pray for your needs and for His richest blessings to fall like rain!
I will do one more post tomorrow before my upcoming surgery, which is scheduled for next week.
Words and photo by Sue Nash/ © 2014