Another Bend in the Road ~ A Painful Saga, Part 5

Around the Bend ~ I laid the bricks for the walkway myself

Around the Bend ~ I helped lay the bricks for the walkway years ago

Wrapped in God’s presence,
Secure in His embrace.
He directs my steps,
Each bend in the road I face.

It seems as though we each have our thorn in the flesh.  Mine is an inherited, early onset of degenerative disc disease that presented when I was in my twenties.  It started with my lower back and included sciatica, but progressed to include involvement with my neck.

These pronounced neck symptoms have forced me to make a tough decision; one that I never intended.

After MUCH prayer, and due to the deterioration of my symptoms with resulting ramifications to my life, I have decided to undergo the three level cervical fusion.

This is after years of trying nearly every non-surgical measure:

Physical therapy, trigger point, deep massage, TENS. myofascial release, chiropractor, traction, injections, stretching, ice and heat, ergonomics, custom-designed pillow, lifestyle adjustments, medications, etc…

For personal reasons, I’ve never wanted acupuncture.

At best, I have merely gotten by throughout the continual roller coaster of pain.  Car and plane trips are huge triggers, but I have always bounced back to a manageable level afterwards. 

That all changed with our latest trips out-of-town.  It’s like I crossed a threshold into a different level with an entirely new set of symptoms, and it is this new normal that drove my decision towards surgery.

Just knowing that any time I travel, I must face significant, lingering neck pain with radiating symptoms is bad enough. However, I now also have an interrelated vertigo with bizarre ear symptoms, which correlates both in intensity and in duration to the neck pain.

The decision was not an easy one, because the what ifs are terrifying.  Not unlike the what ifs that I faced with lower back surgeries, though.  Amazingly, God brought me through those successfully.  You can read about that story, in my series called, A Painful Saga. In fact, I’ve added this post to that series!

The sobering reality is that unless I want to give up traveling, which means that I will rarely see my precious grandchildren, or if I want to live with incapacitating symptoms, I must follow God’s direction and have this surgery.

I realize there are no guarantees.  God has given me a confident assurance, though, that He is directing my path.  That no matter what I face, He will bear me up on eagles’ wings into His presence.

None of us knows what lies ahead.  However, we can rest assured knowing that God already sees around the bend.  He promises to go before, behind and with us: helping, strengthening and delivering.

I believe for a good outcome.  Regardless of what I face, though, I know that God will wrap me us in His loving, comforting arms.  He will carry me safely around this next bend in the road.

“You have seen what I did to the Egyptians, and how I bore you on eagles’ wings and brought you to Myself.”
Exodus 19:4

*Some of you have medical conditions and problems much worse than mine.  During my convalescence, as God brings you to my mind, I will pray for your needs and for His richest blessings to fall like rain! 

I will do one more post tomorrow before my upcoming surgery, which is scheduled for next week.

Words and photo by Sue Nash/ © 2014




49 thoughts on “Another Bend in the Road ~ A Painful Saga, Part 5

  1. rolerrol

    Hi Sue.
    I will keep you in my prayers and will stand with you and believe God for a successful surgery! As you have declared so it is!
    You are in God’s hands….God bless you!


  2. JD Blom

    I will continue to pray for relief from the pain and success in the surgery and that our Lord will give you the strength to endure and glorify him through it all. May God’s blessings be upon you to renew and refresh your spriit. JD

  3. Skye

    Dearest Sue….I will be in daily prayer for you, Sweet Friend. I have inherited back issues, as well, that make life miserable at times. I know what travel can cause. My heart is going out to you this morning. I am thankful that you let all of us know so that we can lift you up in prayer as you begin this journey to healing. I know that He will walk with you each step of the way. Love you, my sweet sister in Christ!!

    1. heavenlyraindrops Post author

      Thanks Skye. Very sorry to hear about the back problems. Sometimes hard to explain the pain journey of spine issues to those who’ve not experienced it. I will be praying for you, too. Will be a lengthy convalescence with a ban on computers, so I will have much time for prayer! Blessings

  4. abundantlife

    One touch of from Jesus, this I pray, that He would touch you and heal you without the surgery. He is able!

  5. Catherine

    Prayers are with you and your family during this bend right now. Refreshing to know His loving arms are wrapped around you, comforting you every step of the way! Blessings friend!

  6. lilkaraphael

    Sue, I will pray on this for you! I know fear of the unknown and what ifs can swirl around your mind but God will surely be with you in this next step of your journey. He IS faithful and will pull you through so you can glorify Him. PEACE I pray for you, God’s continued mercy, grace and favor as you take this on.

    1. heavenlyraindrops Post author

      Thank you, Lilka. Oh, how the enemy does want us to fear. This very morning, he was whispering those fearful taunts into my ear, but God very quickly led me to read Psalm 56, the title of which in the KJV is ‘A Prayer of Trust.’ I especially needed verses 9-13,

      “When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me. In God will I praise his word: in the LORD will I praise his word. In God have I put my trust: I will not be afraid what man can do unto me. Thy vows are upon me, O God: I will render praises unto thee. For thou hast delivered my soul from death: wilt not thou deliver my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of the living?”

      Great antidote to fear! Blessings and thanks my friend. Will continue to lift you and your journey up in my prayers.

  7. Rene Yoshi

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Will pray, too, for the surgeons and medical staff, that the Lord would guide their hands. Blessings to you, sweet sister in Christ! ((hug))

    1. heavenlyraindrops Post author

      Thanks very much, Rene. Interesting that God laid my surgeon on your heart for prayer. He is the same one who did my lower back surgeries, and as far as I can tell, is not a believer. During those former procedures, God opened many opportunities for me to share my faith, and things happened that could only be explained as Divine intervention on my behalf. Some would argue that I should only use a Christian surgeon; however, I know God led me to use him. Even yesterday, during my pre-op conference, I was able to tell him how that his God-given skills brought such healing to my lower back, and that I was trusting in those same skills again. Perhaps the shining of God’s light to him has all been a tiny part of this journey. At the very least, God has used it somehow for His glory. I do appreciate your specific prayers for him and the staff. I come into full agreement with that. Blessings sweet friend.

      1. Rene Yoshi

        I would argue that Christian surgeons should strive to be the best, otherwise we shouldn’t be expected to go to them. 😉 I will pray for your readiness and clarity of mind to give an answer for the hope that is in you when the opportunities arise. God bless you for your faithfulness and love! ❤

  8. Heidi Viars

    Will be praying and joining Rene in prayers for your surgeon. We serve such an amazing God who sees far beyond the bend 🙂 Who knows how God will use this ordeal in others’ lives. I pray miraculous things not just for you, dearest Sue, but also for those involved in your care! You are such a blessing to me!

  9. Sharon J. Gramling

    Totally agree with NOT trying acupuncture, Sue. God is the Healer, and He will visit you. I’ll be praying for you (sorry for responding so late). God bless.

  10. Annie B

    Oh dear Sue- I have been reading and praying and haven’t commented- I just admire your choices- every step of the way- that you’ve made with Jesus at the helm. I am praying and thinking about you – you are such a true blessing to so many of us- may God continue to reveal more new and wondrous things to you as you move through this journey with Him.

    1. heavenlyraindrops Post author

      Thanks Rene. I trying to at least catch up on comments. Still slowly recovering. I pray that all is going well with you, and miss you guys very much! Blessings, friend!


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