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Fathoms of Hopefulness ~ Update on Me and Jim

Photo taken by Jim, of a rainbow he saw while on a trip with the plane.

Photo taken by Jim, of a rainbow he saw while on a trip.  There is bright sunshine and a rainbow ahead!

Points of hopelessness
Dots of despair
Junctures of painfulness
Spots of heightened care

Inklings of uneasiness
Moments of tears
Situations of dreadfulness
Nights of worrisome fears

I thought it was finally time to update my readers on me and my husband.

Yes, you read correctly.  Me and my husband.

Prior to my neck surgery, I described it as another bend in the road with my health.  I never dreamed that during my recovery, my husband was also going to face a health challenge; one that nearly took his life.

My recovery is progressing well, but was more difficult than I anticipated, due to a 6 week complication of my lower spine deteriorating from being off NSAIDs.  Things finally turned around to where I went back to work part-time; however, I’ve experienced some dips with my neck, from the added stress about Jim.  Overall, though, God is keeping me strong and moving things along!

Jim’s struggle has been a huge bend in the road.

What started with some testing to decide the source of a fever and abnormal blood values, turned into a succession of two prolonged hospitalizations for him, including three days in ICU, after nearly bleeding to death from complications following a liver biopsy.  He is in the hospital still.

At this point, what we know from the testing is that he has an inflammatory, treatable condition of the liver. Unfortunately, he also needs surgery to remove his spleen and we will then know the cause of the enlargement of that organ.  He also has an underlying secondary infection, but it is responding to treatment. 

The bottom line is that my sweet husband is a very sick man, but God is guiding his team of specialists toward finding answers, and they feel as though he will soon experience restored health. He longs to return to his job as a jet pilot. 

*****

Throughout my journey with my neck surgery, I admit that there were extremely painful moments and dots of despair, times wondering if I made the right decision.  Times of questioning whether I would fully recover.

However, going through this harrowing experience, of nearly losing the love of my life, was worse.  There were absolutely situations filled with dread and plenty of tears.  There were long nights of sitting upright in waiting rooms, praying against worrisome fears.

Here is the good news:

Throughout it all, God did and continues to show Himself mighty.  He performed a wondrous deliverance by saving Jim’s life.  How we praise Him!

As promised, He never left us alone and is still our Shelter in the midst of the storm.

More than anything, I’ve discovered afresh and anew how much I need and can depend upon Jesus.

Friends, as humans we sometimes cower in discouragement or fear, but we need not.  We can instead experience:

Fathoms of hopefulness
Loads of comfort near
Plateaus of healing
Showers of blessings dear

Provision of peacefulness
Interludes of joyful cheer
Strengthening of trustfulness
Manifestations of God’s power clear

God is greater than our mountainous obstacles. With His help, we will make it through.  Because of Christ, we know with certainty that our future is secure in Him.  We have fathoms of hopefulness!

I pray that you have all been well.  I miss reading your posts and interacting through blogging, but my husband needs me more.

Jim and I both covet your prayers.  We would also love to know of any ways in which we could pray for you.

As always, blessings
Sue

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The Particulars of Persuasion ~ Trusting God is a Commitment

We never know what's around the bend, so it is best to put our trust in God.  To see this photo with Scripture, go to Heavenly Raindrops Images

We never know what’s around the bend, so it is best to put our trust in God. To see this photo with Scripture, go to Heavenly Raindrops Images

For I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.
II Timothy 1:12
KJV

I have read this verse many times, and had always thought that the persuasion mentioned refers mostly to our salvation.  When we come to know Christ by believing in Him, our persuasion comes from knowing that He is able to keep watch over that commitment until we get to heaven, because the Holy Spirit seals us.  In keeping with the old hymn associated, I always thought this verse referred only to our assurance of salvation.

Keela, from Testimonies of His Goodness, got me to thinking about it differently, though.  In a post last month, Real Talk – Commitment Brings Control, Keela discusses this verse from the angle of whether we are committing our problems into God’s care, fully persuaded He is able, thereby allowing Him to keep them. 

I am a person who values commitment.  I generally take my time before making one, because when I commit to something, I am all in.  I want others to trust my word.  When I commit, I commit.

If I am so good at committing, though, why does this not translate into my commitment to trust God fully with all of my problems?  To having a persuasion that He will keep, by watching over, burdens that I give to Him.  Why do I say that I commit things into His capable hands, if I am only going to turn around and take them back by worrying or trying to solve things on my own?

Yet committing, in the sense of trusting God, must be an all in matter, through a relinquishing of the burdens.  If I take back my cares, I break my vow to trust. 

God wants us all in when it comes to our commitment to trust Him.  He wants us persuaded.  Jesus is our model for commitment by being faithful to us.  He is all in, and has nail-scarred hands to prove it.

I only thought that I was good at keeping my word with commitments; in fact, when it comes to fully entrusting my problems to the Lord, I waiver.  My difficulty in doing so involves a problem I have with casting, and I will discuss this in my next post.

Sue Nash/2013

I Know Who Holds Tomorrow

I caught this last glimpse of the sun just before it set ~ the plane is a crop duster.

I caught this last glimpse of the sun just before it set ~ the plane is a crop duster.

What’s the point in borrowing trouble by worrying about tomorrow?  From time to time, though, we are all guilty of doing so.

Worrying serves no purpose.  As Christ reminds,

“Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Matthew 6:34b

So, for all my fellow worry-ers, let’s purpose to live in the blessedness of the day God brings, and leave the cares of tomorrow where they belong ~ in the hands of the One who holds every tomorrow!

As sung by Alison Krauss

I don’t know about tomorrow, I just live from day to day;
I don’t borrow from its sunshine, For its skies may turn to gray.
I don’t worry over the future, Fore I know what Jesus said;
And today I’ll walk beside Him, For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow
I don’t seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden’s getting lighter, Every cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining, There no tear will dim the eye,
At the ending of the rainbow. Where the mountains touch the sky,

Many things about tomorrow
I don’t seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

I don’t know about tomorrow, It may bring me poverty;
But the one who feeds the sparrow Is the one who stands by me.
And the path that is my portion May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me And I’m covered with His blood.

Many things about tomorrow
I don’t seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

 Written by Ira Stanphill

For similar posts, see Golden Oldie Hymns

Comments and photo by Sue Nash/2013

A Calling to Africa God Seemed to Reject ~ A Painful Saga, Part 1

Called Upper Volta then, but is now Burkina Faso

Called Upper Volta then, but is now Burkina Faso

Just before I married my husband, I joked with him that he would never have to live up to the memory of a former boyfriend of mine; rather, he would live in the shadow of a continent I loved.  Africa.

My Calling to Africa

My love for Africa resulted from an extended stay in West Africa, living on the edge of the Sahara Desert with a missionary family I knew.  From the moment I arrived, I knew that I must return one day as a nurse.   

While there, the extent of impoverished people, in need of physical and spiritual help, overwhelmed me.  It was seeing the sick and hurting children, though, that really broke my heart. 

When with sadness my time in Africa ended, I knew that I had found my calling.  I had it all figured out.  I was a young, single, and willing nurse.  All I needed to do was to find the path God wanted me to take in returning.

God’s Seeming Rejection of My Calling

Unfortunately, during a full year of praying and searching for the right opportunity, God remained silent as He closed every door.  He very clearly said no.  Crushed and confused, I spent the next several years convinced that for some reason I was not good enough to serve as a missionary.  The enemy tried to convince me that God had rejected me. 

Over time, however, I came to realize that this was not so.  I had wanted to work in Africa, but it was not God’s calling.  He taught me that not everyone must go; some instead serve in other ways.  Quite simply, what I thought was a calling was really only something I wanted to do, and not God’s plan for my life.

When God closes a door, He opens another. 

That is exactly what He did.  An opportunity opened for me to move to Colorado.  In need of a change, I jumped at the offer.  It was there that I began dating the man who is now my husband.

Learning God’s Ways Are Best

While in Africa, I thought I was strong enough to conquer the world.  I know now that my health would never have survived living overseas in remote conditions.  God knew what was ultimately best for me.  I thought I needed Africa, but He knew that I needed the support of a strong and loving husband.

A souvenir from my trip

A souvenir from my trip

I have long since made peace over my painful Africa ordeal.  Deep down, I still long to go and have tried on many occasions to take other short-term mission trips; each time God says no.  I suppose it is because it would still hurt to leave, but it is also unlikely that I would endure the physical demands of such a trip.

Have any of you ever felt as though God rejected you?  Or that because of past failures, you are not good enough to serve Him? 

I urge you to let it all go at the foot of the cross.  God has a unique purpose for each of us and He alone knows what that entails.  Begin living for the Lord right where you are.  He will direct your steps in a way that is pleasing to Him.

In my next posting of A Painful Saga, I will share about my physical pain journey.  Of how God is bringing back my health.

God Means What He Says

My Surprise Lilies ~ lovely foliage is all you get in the Spring, then suddenly the lilies sprout in Summer

My Surprise Lilies ~ lovely foliage is all you get in the Spring, then suddenly the lilies sprout in Summer

Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?
John 11:40
NKJV

Does God ever have to take you back to the drawing board, so to speak?   Those times when you grab a hold of a word of promise from Him, only to find yourself letting go of it when the circumstances convince you otherwise.

When God makes a promise, He doesn’t change His mind, nor does delay render it null and void.  When God promises, He means what He says.

‘Did I not say to you’ is as trustworthy in the promise stage as it is at the fulfillment.  We must believe God’s faithfulness and the certainty of His word.

Blessings in believing!
Sue Nash/2013

Trust and Obey

Trust and Obey

TRUST HIM
~what He says
~who He is
~in all circumstances
~no matter how hard
~no matter what
Simply trust

AND
~trust for sure
~but don’t stop there
~He wants more
~ trust Him, yes
~but to demonstrate you’re His
There’s more

OBEY
~on good days
~on every other day
~because He asks
~because He knows what’s best
~because of what He did
Just obey

Fear God and obey His commands, for this is everyone’s duty.
Ecclesiastes 12:13

Double daffodils

Double daffodils

A favorite old hymn says it best:

Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Video of Trust and Obey hymn