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Fathoms of Hopefulness ~ Update on Me and Jim

Photo taken by Jim, of a rainbow he saw while on a trip with the plane.

Photo taken by Jim, of a rainbow he saw while on a trip.  There is bright sunshine and a rainbow ahead!

Points of hopelessness
Dots of despair
Junctures of painfulness
Spots of heightened care

Inklings of uneasiness
Moments of tears
Situations of dreadfulness
Nights of worrisome fears

I thought it was finally time to update my readers on me and my husband.

Yes, you read correctly.  Me and my husband.

Prior to my neck surgery, I described it as another bend in the road with my health.  I never dreamed that during my recovery, my husband was also going to face a health challenge; one that nearly took his life.

My recovery is progressing well, but was more difficult than I anticipated, due to a 6 week complication of my lower spine deteriorating from being off NSAIDs.  Things finally turned around to where I went back to work part-time; however, I’ve experienced some dips with my neck, from the added stress about Jim.  Overall, though, God is keeping me strong and moving things along!

Jim’s struggle has been a huge bend in the road.

What started with some testing to decide the source of a fever and abnormal blood values, turned into a succession of two prolonged hospitalizations for him, including three days in ICU, after nearly bleeding to death from complications following a liver biopsy.  He is in the hospital still.

At this point, what we know from the testing is that he has an inflammatory, treatable condition of the liver. Unfortunately, he also needs surgery to remove his spleen and we will then know the cause of the enlargement of that organ.  He also has an underlying secondary infection, but it is responding to treatment. 

The bottom line is that my sweet husband is a very sick man, but God is guiding his team of specialists toward finding answers, and they feel as though he will soon experience restored health. He longs to return to his job as a jet pilot. 

*****

Throughout my journey with my neck surgery, I admit that there were extremely painful moments and dots of despair, times wondering if I made the right decision.  Times of questioning whether I would fully recover.

However, going through this harrowing experience, of nearly losing the love of my life, was worse.  There were absolutely situations filled with dread and plenty of tears.  There were long nights of sitting upright in waiting rooms, praying against worrisome fears.

Here is the good news:

Throughout it all, God did and continues to show Himself mighty.  He performed a wondrous deliverance by saving Jim’s life.  How we praise Him!

As promised, He never left us alone and is still our Shelter in the midst of the storm.

More than anything, I’ve discovered afresh and anew how much I need and can depend upon Jesus.

Friends, as humans we sometimes cower in discouragement or fear, but we need not.  We can instead experience:

Fathoms of hopefulness
Loads of comfort near
Plateaus of healing
Showers of blessings dear

Provision of peacefulness
Interludes of joyful cheer
Strengthening of trustfulness
Manifestations of God’s power clear

God is greater than our mountainous obstacles. With His help, we will make it through.  Because of Christ, we know with certainty that our future is secure in Him.  We have fathoms of hopefulness!

I pray that you have all been well.  I miss reading your posts and interacting through blogging, but my husband needs me more.

Jim and I both covet your prayers.  We would also love to know of any ways in which we could pray for you.

As always, blessings
Sue

The Sweetest Things ~ Hugs and Kisses From Heaven

A tulip for your sweetness

Tulips for your sweetness

Sometimes, when you are in the midst of suffering or sadness, the sweetest things happen.  Several such things have occurred during this time of semi-convalescence due to my pain and vertigo.

Yesterday, I had an injection in my neck.  Spinal injections don’t always help and can initially exacerbate the pain, but since I had one a couple of years ago that worked, I decided to try one again.  I’m avoiding the alternative, a three level cervical fusion, like the plague!

The sweet things started before I even left for the shot.

Sweet indeed

My mom called to assure me she was praying and to say she loves me.  She is one of those early rising, fervent prayer warriors, so I don’t take her prayers lightly.  Her presence and love for me is sweet indeed.

Snugly sweet

Right after I got home from having the procedure, my little Maltese seemed to know something was wrong.  He may have smelled the lingering clinic odors on my clothing.  Although not normally a lap dog, he suddenly wanted up in my chair to sweetly snuggle.

Unexpected sweet thing

My son randomly text-ed to apologize for something and to remind me that he loves me.  Sadly, as our children get older we hear from them less often.  To receive an unexpected apology and acknowledgment of my son’s love was a very sweet thing.

Totally sweet things

Friends have text-ed, emailed and blogged to check on me and let me know they are praying.  This includes many of you, which is totally sweet.

Always sweet

My husband has been a trooper throughout this and all the many other times I have struggled, starting with my back surgeries many years ago.  To this day, he still does the majority of the housework.  I try never to take him for granted.  He is always so sweet.

The sweetest thing

These displays of sweetness overwhelm and warm my heart.  However, since God is in control and works all things out for our good, the sweet things are really from Him.  Our acts of kindness are but the conduits of His sweetness.  They are like hugs and kisses from heaven.

His love and tender care for us is by far the sweetest thing.

“The Lord is good to all: and His tender mercies are over all His works.”
Psalm 145:9

*My thanks to all of you for your thoughtfulness and prayers. I am getting better!
Sue Nash/2014

God Understands

My English Dogwood in bloom

My English Dogwood in bloom

God understands our sorrow,
And to what extent.
He recognizes our hurts,
Knows where all our tears went.

God comprehends our pain,
And the depth to which. 
He realizes our suffering,
Is acquainted with it.

God apprehends our struggles,
And the brokenness.
He specializes in mending,
Each wound, He will address.

God transcends our good,
And our capacity for it.
He despises our sin,
Yet, paid the price to fix.

God extends His mercy
And the gift of grace.
He finalizes salvation
For anyone who partakes.

God befriends His children,
And has a home prepared.
He agonizes for all,
Wanting everyone there. 

You comprehend my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways.
Psalm 139:3

Sue Nash/2013

God Understands Poetry Corner

For more of my poems, see Poetry Corner

Good Friday Feature

Feature Friday
Since this is Good Friday, I decided that it would be better to feature something related to the Cross.  Knowing I would face the decision of how best to handle today’s post, I began making mental notes whenever one of my fellow Christian bloggers posted something specifically about Christ’s suffering. This High Holy season for Christians just should not ever become routine and certainly never become buried under the trappings of bunnies and baskets. Knowing what Christ did on our behalf should always prompt us to pause from the ordinary to reflect upon His extraordinary sacrifice.

I have encountered so many talented, inspirational writers through blogging, so my decision about today’s feature was difficult. However, one person shone above the rest, for a couple of reasons. First, today’s featured author has a nice website with uplifting posts, but one recently about the Passion really grabbed my attention. In addition, this author is a person who has his own cross, which he must daily bear. Today’s Friday Feature focuses on an individual with an amazing testimony, and an even more incredible gift of using his personal cross as an avenue of blessing others. It is my honor to feature:

Unshakable Hope
by Bill

Though afflicted at an early age of a devastating and progressive illness (the details of which he describes on his blog), Bill has done what plenty others in similar circumstances did not: he chose to allow his horrendous trial on this earth to drive him to the Cross and not away. Rather than blaming God and running the other direction, he chose the high and very courageous road of seeing his circumstances from God’s perspective and in the process, found the unshakable hope for which his blog gets its name.

During the few months since I discovered Unshakable Hope, I have never heard Bill complain or express any bitterness over his circumstances. Instead, he pours into others through encouraging, thoughtful posts. Although I only know of Bill from his website, I am certain that he is very human and must have many weak moments in his faith, but one would never know of this from what he writes. His cross, though immense, he always uses to point to the One who understands and helps us bear our burdens. He always points them to The Cross.

I thank you Bill, for being an inspiration, and for using your struggle as an avenue of encouraging others. If you have not already discovered his site, I recommend you check him out. Without a doubt, you do not want to miss his recent post, It is Finished, in which he uses dynamic photos to accompany a poem about the Crucifixion, and his About Bill page for his touching testimony. You can also follow the link above to this awesome site!

Written as this author’s opinion.
Sue Nash